Im up again...its going on 3am.. I can't sleep. I'm actually not sleepy at all :-/ I have a lot on my mind as usual. Work, school, Jesse..family, God..everything. I can't sleep with all this mess on my head, and plus I got a headache. I hate being up, because my thoughts usually get the best of me. Its times like that, when I get upset all over again about the past, times like this when I start thinking I'm being cheated on AGAIN... I just cannot seem to get peace of mind...ugh! Trust me..it sucks... I see why some people just say fuck it...and be whore-mongers for their entire lives.... I'm sure its less nerve racking than being cheated on multiple times, and still trying to make it work. Lord forgive me for still having so much resentment & animosity in my heart, but I swear there are times I feel like straight snapping his neck for what he put me through...and dont get me started on me EVER running into those bitches...
On Another Note: I still have no job, I am still not in school. I want to find a online program to get a quick certificate in. I DO NOT want to take campus classes...That will prohibit me from moving away sooner, and trust me when I say, this place is killing me! I hate it here every second... Maybe it would be better if I got at least 1 gotdamn call-back for a job or something...but even when I call them, I get nothing...nothing at all..and its so depressing...I see why people turn to selling drugs...At least they out there bringing in some sort of income...hell even Mcdonalds aint call back. This is bullshit....truly bullshit...humm... I think I need to move to Canada..lol
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