The Weight of the World...

It is surely on my shoulders right now. Everything that use to make me comfortable in my life, has come crashing down, and I am seriously struggling within myself. I do not know how to be happy anymore. I trust not one person in my life. I honestly mean that too. As sad as that sounds. It hurts to be thrown into something I am NOT comfortable with, and not have one sole understand why I'm so moody. I honestly could benefit from being by myself...secluded somewhere...but like everything else.. I don't even have that option. I'm here with Jesse, and that way I feel, and the way I act obviously doesn't sit well with him. But I feel like my life is in shambles, and I don't have a sole to trust...so why would I walk around sporting a fake smile.. I'm burnt out. I carry every body Else's issues on my shoulders as well as my own. I'm self conscious about the way I look, my relationships, just about everything In my life. I need to figure things out because I am slowly dying inside...